5. The End of the Rope?

“When you’re up to your waist in alligators,
 it’s difficult to remember that your main objective
 was to drain the swamp.”
— Anonymous

 

I sat on the edge of the bed and cried.

Why was he being so stubborn?

Why was I being so sensitive?

Why did he have to have everything his way?

Why did I sulk whenever I didn’t get my way?

Father God, I’m shaking again. I hate it when this trembling takes control of my hands, my legs, my shoulders, my thoughts … my jaw! My mouth can’t even form words!

I’ve tried doctors, pastors, a psychologist, a psychiatrist, a marriage counselor, anti-depressants, silence, shouting, tears, sleep … prayer.

I am the Lord your God.

I know.

Who teaches you what is best for you….

Actually, I’d be willing to settle for ‘better.’

Who directs you in the way you should go.

I tried doing that. It was scary.

Follow Me.

But I’m afraid.

I AM the Way.

Are You absolutely sure there’s no other route?

I AM the Truth.

Truth can be terribly painful.

I AM the Life.

My life doesn’t seem worth the effort.

Lord, I’m at the end of my rope. My hands are burning. It seems like I’ve been hanging on for such a long time, and I’m so very tired. Please help me to let go and trust You to catch me …

At that moment, my body stopped trembling. My hands lay perfectly still in my lap.        A tingling sensation began flowing from my fingertips to my elbows, and I knew. I was  supernaturally giving Jesus permission to take His rightful position as Lord of my life.    I had allowed Him to catch me.

“In this world
you will have trouble.
But take heart!
I have overcome the world.”

Jesus (John 16:33)

A RUST REMOVER …

Read Matthew 26:38-42. Notice that Jesus pleaded with His Father to come up with some other way to save you and me from the fate of eternal death. Now think about this: How did the Father God answer His only Son’s desperate prayers?